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Monday, January 11, 2010

High Anxiety...

I'm going through it right now.

I REALLY want this job. It's a freelance gig but ohmigoodness, it would mean SO much to me if I got it. I need it. It would be great. I can do it. I realllllly want it. I can't remember the last time I've wanted something badly.

Well in a job sense.

Just the other week I was craving some..

Never mind. I just REALLY want this job. Badly. I'm trying to practice patience and wait for a (positive) response. And I'm trying to practice praying and move on. I know that if it is in God's will for me to have it then---I'll have it. It sounds simple but last night I couldn't even sleep because I was so excited.

And I don't feel all positive about this gig like I did about writing for The minute I turned in my video and application for Clinique I said,

"I got this." I didn't stress it. Nor was I nervous. In fact when I saw some unknown number pop up on my phone, I KNEW it was them telling me I was on the team.

I don't feel that way about this one. I'm nervous and all fearful of rejection.

I keep checking my Berry to see if I got a new email. Am I in?

I can't handle this. I need a paper bag. If I don't get this job I will be devastated.

No ain't that deep but MAN.

I can't breathe.

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